I apologize for not writing in so long, but sometimes life gets in the way, and you find that you don't have time to do much except your responsibilities. And the past year or so has been crazy...to say the least.
Last year held some good and some bad things for me. The good was that, for the first time in two and a half years, I found a friend whose intention was not to use me or hurt me in any way. I found that I could finally be myself around someone without them thinking I'm weird. He was truly a gift from God.
The bad things (the ones I can share anyways), unfortunately included the illness and death of my grandfather. He started getting very ill (he was sick already, but it took a turn for the worst) in January. For the next eight months (or seven and a half), I watched my grandfather get better and worse until he eventually passed away in August. The next month and a half was hard on me (although not as hard as it was on my mother).
Sometimes, our life presents circumstances that make us feel as if we're on shifting sand. That month (and even a little bit afterwards) I struggled with my faith and believing that God actually was a healer. It felt as if my world was crumbling and God wasn't anywhere to be found. Hence, the shifting sand.
Then, on labor day, I was at a very dark place. I didn't know what to do except sit in my room alone and cry. I didn't want to be around anyone and I didn't want to talk about it. I kept praying that God would work a miracle...and He did.
I went to an online bible study hosted by Alan Powell of Anthem Lights (maybe you've heard of them?). I 'met' a girl there who was going through similar circumstances and she gave me her number. Alan himself also answered a question of mine. After that bible study, I realized that maybe God had put me in these circumstances for a reason. A peace came over me and I knew that, no matter what happened, God would bring me through it. That's when I realized that He alone is my solid rock and foundation.
So, yes, life is VERY shifty. But, in the midst of all the pain and the uncertainty, we can be certain that there is a God that is our solid foundation. He will never leave us, nor forsake us, and He will always, always be there for us, holding us up in the middle of our trial.
